“You never know how good you have it until you don’t…Happiness is a question of perspective.”
Can you remember moments in your life when you had everything to be happy but somehow you weren’t?
I myself can remember loads of moments in my life when I did have everything to be happy but I just refused to play along and be happy. I insisted on being miserable. In my life it’s always when looking back I often realized that I was indeed happy in a specific moment. Happiness is a question of perspective. My mom used to always say: No matter how hard things get they can still get worst so enjoy the bad cause it may all change for the worst before you realize it. I used to think that was so pessimistic. Whenever she would say such things, I would hurry to cut her off with the usual:” Mom you’re ruining my fun!”. But now that I am older I am forced to realize mom may have been up to something besides trying to ruin my fun.
In this pic, I was at my skinniest. Probably the skinniest I’ll ever be. But still I was not ahappy.
“To get that skinny level again, I’d actually need to cut off limbs which quite frankly I am not prepared to do.”
What I did: I spent most of my time stressing over things I had absolutely no control over.
What I should have done instead: Pull out all of my old clothes from my 20’s and try the hell out of them with pics to boot.
Take that other pic for instance with me standing holding a bag of popcorn…. (not my brightest hour, I know…).
“I looked like a snack in this pic but felt like a big bowl of mashed potatoes”
In retrospect, I look damn well perfect but believe me I still wasn’t happy with my size. I thought I was fat. I remember agonizing over wearing that pair short thinking to myself I had gained way too much weight. I can’t believe I thought I was fat. If that’s not insanity, I don’t know what is.
But then again it’s not just with my weight I do that, I also do that with plenty of areas in my life, always waiting for that future when I’ll finally be perfect and have everything I have ever wanted, forgetting in the process that I, not too long ago, was very much wishing and praying for what I do have now. I can’t promise I’ll change overnight but it is definitely an uphill battle I am willing to fight:).
What about you dear readers? I am sure I am not alone in this, feel free to share:)